Madcap (zimdanen) wrote,

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Ya know, I hate to say this, but I really don't think Guard is worth it. I was willing to sacrifice time, energy, everything.. but we've been at this for too long and I don't remember the last time I've been able to relax. I've been this close to quitting Guard (and damn, I'm ready to quit school too, but I know I can't do that) for a while now; the only thing that prevents me is the fact that I'd be screwing other people over if I did. If I could quit and I'd be the only one that that would affect, I'd be gone in a heartbeat.

I guess my decision about whether or not I'll be doing an independent guard is answered for now, though I still have the desire. I just don't think it'll be worth it; it's a lot of time and effort to do an independent guard.

This year's just.. been too much.

edit: I don't have the energy to get through what I need to of A Tale of Two Cities. It's sad; I used to always get through my books, no matter how much I didn't like them. I've liked some of the books that I've read this year - I'd like to finish this one - but I just don't have the time and energy to do so. Yet another one I'll have to sparknotes this year.

It's such a waste.
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