Madcap (zimdanen) wrote,

I would like to collect the memoirs of the elderly members of my family, and the recollections of those that have deceased by those still living, both in English and in Russian, so that I may one day publish them, along with the memoirs of the middle-aged generation and the comments of the younger. Not so that they might be sold and read by stupid people who would fawn over them because of my status in the world at the time (which will hopefully be great), but because they mean a lot to me, and I would like to have them. My family is comprised of amazing individuals, all of whom have overcome great obstacles and gone on to become great men and women. My family is so many hard-working, intelligent individuals that have always been the top of whatever they undertook.

I don't know. It would just mean a lot to me to have something like this that I could read and reflect upon. I don't think I'll ever be as great a person as some of those in my family, simply because I have not had to face the same challenges that they have - I haven't had people trying to take advantage of me, I haven't been held back because I was Jewish.. In one sense, I'm thankful for that, but in another, I think that the ease of life in the United States has caused me to develop into much less of a person than I might otherwise be. Had things been different, I might have been as great as my grandfather was and my father is, but I don't think I'll ever rise to their greatness.
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