Uff. Got up early to deliver a box for Afton. Hope you appreciate this, Afton!
The movie was good. Better than I expected. It was good to see everyone, and good to have everyone back - Tenshi, Ryuu.. Wish I could make Pat happy. Wish I could make everyone happy.. but I don't have the power that I want, much as I wish I did - remember that, Jeff? When Rick was asking us what power we'd have if we had one? Maybe it wouldn't even matter if it alleviated everyone's problems..
I'm going to draw a picture
A picture on my wrist
I'll draw it with a razor
I'll draw it just like this
And as I draw this picture
A fountain will appear
And slowly all my problems
Will just disappear
I really, really wish I could cut. It's been a long, long time since I've wanted to. And it would be a good way to build up my pain tolerance, as I've been wanting to.
I've had a cloud hanging over me for the past few days that I haven't been able to shake for long. And I've just tonight been able to distance everyone emotionally, so I feel completely alone now and don't want anyone here. That's a first in a long time for that too. Not much to do but just wait it out.