April 23rd, 2003

Sano

Watching you..

I hate being a wimp. I hate not knowing. I hate being me. I hate.. a lot of things. I hate this.. ::sighs:: I hate being powerless.. Sometimes, I just want to run away from it all; it's too painful to watch. Too depressing. It's not so bad if you're there, ya know? But watching.. watching hurts. ::sigh:: And that's all I ever do, ne? >.< ::sigh:: No, it's not, but it's easier to think that when it's what you're doing now, eh? Heh. Yeah.. ::shrug:: It's unimportant anyway. It's just me. ^^;
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    ::sigh::
Sano

GRAR!

God, I'm STUPID! ::bangs head against the wall:: I should just fucking be happy! Jeses fucking Christ!
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    stupid
Sano

Truth.

"The first principle is that you must not fool yourself--and you are the easiest person to fool. So you have to be very careful about that."

Finishing up the book; gonna start the actual review soon.
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    working working
Sano

Scientific Integrity.

"I would like to add something that's not essential to the science, but something I kind of believe, which is that you should not fool the layman when you're talking as a scientist. I am not trying to tell you what to do about cheating on your wife, or fooling your girlfriend, or something like that, when you're not trying to be a scientist, but trying to be an ordinary human being. We'll leave those problems up to you and your rabbi. I'm talking about a specific, extra type of integrity that is not lying, but bending over backwards to show how you're maybe wrong, that you ought to have when acting as a scientist. And this is our responsibility as scientists, certainly to other scientists, and I think to laymen."

It's a good thing I didn't think to put quotes on my LJ earlier; just sent them directly to Tenshi.
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Think about it..

"So I have just one wish for you--the good luck to be somewhere where you are free to maintain the kind of integrity I have described, and where you do not feel forced by a need to maintain your position in the organization, or financial support, or so on, to lose your integrity. May you have that freedom."

I suggest that you all go out and read "Surely You're Joking, Mr. Feynman!" : Adventures of a Curious Character. No, it's not all like that; in fact, this is probably the only serious part in the whole book. Feynman was an absolute genius, and a very funny man; this book tells many of his little stories, such as his escapades as a safebreaker.. some very interesting stuff.

I'm gonna go grab some Ramen then go start on my review. Done with the book, and I have less than 4 pages of notes.. very short, but should make for an easier review to write. Hopefully I'll do okay pointwise, since I'm starting out with a 10-point disadvantage.
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    hungry hungry
Sano

Got it!

I'm hungry.

Anyway, I got to school around 1:30 (school-time) and turned in my book review. Woohoo! That monkey's off my back. Though I like monkeys.. MONKEY! XD

I miss Saru-chan.. he was cute. ^^;

So I was there for about 2 and a half periods, though study hall doesn't count. APUSH went quicker than normal; maybe because it wasn't after a long day of school (rather, it was after a long day ..and night.. of reading and writing XD). After school was pretty fun, and I opened my wallet to see the $25 that Grandma gave me that I had forgotten about. I'm gonna go down to WalMart and check something out, and if I don't find it, I'll use 20 of it for my AMA fee and give the other $5 to Mom.

Hmm.. this is the first real update in quite some time. ^^ Cool. Real updates just didn't seem tempting to do anymore. ^^; Can't wait to pay my parents back; I have a lot of stuff to buy:

  • Rick's bday gift (~$28)
  • AMA dues ($20)
  • Alex's bday gift
  • Dad's bday gift
  • [screened]'s bday gift
  • Parent's anniversary gift
  • Giant spoons and sporks (I think 3 and 2, respectively)
Okay, so that's all I can think of right now. Which is a good thing (minus the fact that that's a lot of money on top of what I owe). Oh yeah, and..

  • Year of LJ time ($25)
Blargh. x_x I'm broke.

Ooh, and I got a mention in someone's LJ!
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    hungry hungry
Sano

Song makes me lonely..

I knew that this moment would come in time
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside
Are you searching for words that you can't find
Trying to hide your emotions but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye
So I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping for someday
Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
Waiting for someday Believing in someday
Praying for someday, I'll be....
Longing for someday Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday, I'll be....
Thinking of someday Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday, I'll be....
Living for someday Counting on someday
Knowing that one day....
I will see you


I love you..

Add the Blessid Union of Souls CD to my list of things I need money for; I've wanted this CD for a long time.
  • Current Music
    Blessid Union of Souls - Standing at the Edge of the Earth
Sano

I miss it.

There was a time, maybe a month or so, when I was just bouncy and happy and energetic.. okay, I was completely manic-depressive, but mostly manic, so it was good. I miss that.. I don't like sliding back into what I was, like I always do. It seems to have come to an impasse, so I still enjoy myself and can be goofy.. ish.. I can't seem to get very excited about much. ::shrug:: Sucks. Missin' the good old days..
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